Wednesday, November 9
screwing up helped me realise what i really wanted. - Wednesday, November 09, 2005
+O song i'm listening to: mae - this is the countdownO+ msn nick at the moment:
kelly* - maybe if i shout really loud, i won't need to use the telephone!
+O personal msg now: whispers : i see dead people. muahahahahhahahaha.
O+ events to look forward to: working?
bought a half off shoulder at parkway's 77th st. was asking mom, my aunt and cher for opinion when i heard su wen's voice saying 'YA YA KELLY VERY NICE!'.. instantenously, i knew it was her. haha. met jovinn(her hair's now purple) n jeammie in e same shop. i liked the top so much that i bought it. =))
i spent money even before i got there actually.cheryl decided to get my 1st aunt a set of jewellery(she managed to get 20% off cos she was giving that puppy look n e guy gave in) and that all 4 of us..aaron,me,my sis and her would split e cost. SIANZ. haven't even started working and i've already spent money. *shakes head*
work for damala and i will start later than initially intended. our interview's on monday.
exactly 3 wks before they leave me behind. all of us behind. sighs. the flight's at 4pm. check in at 2pm. and see them only next yr. the thought of it simply depresses me.
dad says i ahev no discipline.no respect towards him. glad u konw. i have no respect for someone who tries to bring down my self-esteem and expects me to treat him as high and mighty. the day u hit me was the day u didn't deserve any respect fm me.
had a conversation with a friend yesterday. fm the conversation, it finally occurred to me that indeed there is no substitute for experience. looking back this past 2 yrs, i've realised i have gone thru quite a bit to finally have a much clearer light abt what i really want. and yes, along the way, i have screwed up. but i guess at this point of time, i'm willing to wait for as long as it takes until i get what i want rather than just go for 2nd best.
luv alwaez.
kel